Behind the Portrait - 12th House

I often write things for another purpose (in this case a writing prompt) and then look at it through astrological eyes and see its symbolism. . .

Upon the plain walls of my life,
there hangs a portrait. It is a good likeness.

And behind it, set into the discoloured patch
on the wall. Is a blank space.

And set within that blank space, is a secret safe.
Where I, have locked myself away.

And no one, would even begin to suspect,
that the portrait may not be me.

And that I, may be hidden behind it.
Sitting quietly alone, inside the safe.

In this, I saw the portrait as being all that is on show, the ascendant and our highly visible planets. While behind the portrait, the 12th house planets (in my case the mars and moon) are locked away. Also as my 4th house contains my Sun, I am often not immediately 'seen'.

Do you identify with this? Are some parts of you more noticeable, more easily recognised? Or is your portrait an accurate enough representation?

Image and words - Susannah Bec.

Jupiter sitting on my 12th house Moon

"I have no words left to describe the moon.
For she who sails in the heavens, and pulls and pushes the oceans is not a one for words. She rules the surges of the heart, the nuances, the subtleties that the sun and his fierce shining light may miss. So I am sorry - I have no words left to describe the moon..."

"I held the mirror upside down today
but it didn't change what I saw. . .
Still me, still there, still the right way up."

The last couple of days I've been haunted by strange feelings surfacing, ones that I could not put words to. On checking my transits I found Jupiter sitting exactly on my 12th House Moon.

Images and words - Susannah Bec.

A Thought for Today. . .

"A tree has both straight and crooked branches; the symmetry of the tree,
however, is perfect. Life is balanced like a tree. When you consider
the struggles, difficulties, and sorrows as a part of it,
then you see it as beautiful and perfect."
- George M. Lamsa

NaNoWriMo, Mercury Retrograde and Lessons Learned

"Much may be done in those little shreds and patches of time which every day produces, and which most men throw away." - Charles Caleb Colton

I spent the whole month of November taking part in the NaNoWriMo challenge where the aim is, hmmm it's probably better if I let them tell you...

"National Novel Writing Month is a fun, seat-of-your-pants approach to novel writing. Participants begin writing on November 1. The goal is to write a 50,000 word novel by November 30. Because of the limited writing window, the ONLY thing that matters in NaNoWriMo is output."

Now I, on a whim, signed up for this challenge!
With no ideas, no plot, and no experience of writing anything longer than a blog post!

The whole point of NaNoWriMo is to get yourself a rough draft. To enable you to put down the bones of your story, so that you end up with a body of words to work from. They tell you not to read or edit it as you go, just to write and that is exactly what I did.

I can see their point that the endless revision and rewriting and inevitable procrastination would slow you down. As they say, the time for that is afterwards.

I managed to complete the challenge!

In fact I went on to write 72,300 words in 30 days. I finished on the 30th November and did as they suggested and left it alone for a while.

Now I am preparing to get it out and use the mercury retrograde period to do what needs to be done next, rereading, revision and rewriting.

What a perfect use of a mercury retrograde!

I am going to be making sure that I respect the energy of the mercury retrograde and make sure to take frequent back ups of everything I write too!

A Mercury retrograde tale. . .

I must admit I didn't used to take much notice of the mercury retrograde period until last year where my partner was looking for another car.

Now, I thought to myself, it isn't really a good idea to buy another car while mercury is retrograde. In fact I may have even mentioned it aloud and said it would be much better to wait until mercury went direct, but I didn't push the fact and my partner with his sun and mars conjunct in gemini was impatient to move on, so went ahead and bought the car.

Of course it looked perfect on paper, a really good deal and we always have such good luck with cars, or should I rephrase that, we always HAD such good luck with cars...this one on the other hand is - trigger scary music...the car from hell!

Well ever since then and as each new, unseen, and almost laughably unfortunate fault arises, I can not help but repeat "we shouldn't have bought a car under mercury retrograde".

My partner answers . . .

"you should have said at the time".

I did, but only in a half hearted way, I didn't INSIST, as I hadn't had personal experience of the consequences.

But I tell you what though, neither of us would EVER buy a car under mercury retrograde again!

So this mercury retrograde . . .

(10th - 30th December 2010) I am going to use its energy, and get on with my next stage of NaNoWriMo and reread, revise and rewrite.

So come on mercury retrograde get behind me on this, you owe me one!

"No one knows what he can do till he tries." - Publius Syrus

Darkness Illuminated

As subconscious becomes conscious
great energy is released
and transformation occurs.

Image - copyright Susannah Bec 2010


Twelfth house

subterranean

dungeon of

things that seethe

and ferment.


It is a big place

intercepted and

home to mars

its ruler

and his anger

and the moon

and her vast ocean

the place is awash

with emotion.


I had no access

that room was locked

camouflaged to my

conscious mind

revealing itself

surreptitiously.


Repressed

and disowned

its infantile

energy

grew.


Then you came

with your venus

perched on

my moons

exact degree


and your mars

conjuncting

mine

(exact again)


and through

you

I could see

what I hadn't

before


and

I entered

that place

I could not see

and the

volcano

erupted

and

my world

fell

apart



and it

swept

away the

locked doors

and what was

subconscious

finally

became

conscious.

"When consciousness draws near to the unconscious,
not only does it receive a devastating shock but something
of its light penetrates into the darkness of the unconscious.
The result is that the unconscious is no longer so remote
and strange and terrifying, and this paves the way for an
eventual union....What happens is that its contents cross
over into consciousness more easily than before."
- Carl Jung, Mysterium Coniunctionis

Image and Words: Susannah Bec

Transit to Chiron

Lately, I have been unsettled by the shadows
those fleeting glimpses at the periphery of my vision
for there seem to be ghosts living in the corner of my eye...

Copyright - Susannah Bec 2010

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Pisces Full Moon - Time For Forgiveness

"Forgiveness is a rebirth of hope, a reorganization of thought,
and a reconstruction of dreams. Once forgiving begins, dreams can be rebuilt.
When forgiving is complete, meaning has been extracted from the worst of
experiences and used to create a new set of moral rules and a new
interpretation of life’s events." - Beverly Flanigan

I opened the door and there you were
Just as I had left you so long ago

The frozen moment immortalised
still replaying. . . over and over

But, now I am here again
to tell you I am sorry

to ask you to
forgive
me

*

This Pisces full Moon conjuncts Chiron (and falls on my natal Chiron).

Image and words by Susannah Bec.

Neptunes House

"Abracadabra - a tap with a magic wand - gone!"

I am very familiar with the creative / spiritual / mystical aspects to Neptune, but I am curious about peoples experiences with the sometimes not so rosy effects that Neptune can have! In particular I wanted to ask if you are prone to experiencing confusion, fear and anxiety around the concerns of the house that Neptune falls in, in your natal chart?

For myself Neptune in the 6th house brings an oversensitivity to drugs (medications) chemicals, smells etc. It has always made any ill health I have had notoriously difficult to diagnose and that in turn has caused vague floating fears. Though I am very intuitive when it comes to other peoples health (and my amateur diagnostic abilities are usually excellent :-) - probable due to my Neptunes exact sextile to Venus conjunct Pluto in Virgo.) I don't seem to be able to see my own 6th house issues with such clarity!
These floating fears can also be pinned onto my pets if I am not aware and vigilant and I have trouble 'seeing clearly' if my concerns are valid or not. The sixth house is one place I sometimes have to ask others for a second opinion, as I know that sometimes reality can shift a little too easily there for me!

Some more thoughts based purely on observation of people close to me -

Neptune conjunct Ascendant / in the 1st house brings a shifting self image, a feeling of "I have lost myself again" - I was sure I knew who I was!
Fear sometimes comes from not having a clear sense of who they are and what they are doing.

Who are you? said the Caterpillar. Alice replied rather shyly, 'I - I hardly know, Sir, just at present - at least I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have changed several times since then' - Lewis Carroll

Neptune in 12th - if no time is made to allow Neptune activities into everyday life - meditation, creativity, daydreaming etc. then absent mindedness, forgetfulness and spaciness seems to seep through into day to day life - over tiredness and sometimes illness can be signs that these people need to retreat and look after their Neptune self. Vague floating anxiety can sometimes surface from the subconscious and fear can come from 'losing yourself' in things.

Some ramblng observations about how things can sometimes seem in Neptunes house

In the house of Neptune

Schrodingers cat
is both alive and not alive

*
nothing is solid
nothing is sure

*
morphing reflections
liquid truth

first I know
then I don't
maybe it will
maybe it won't

*
I had it a moment ago
now it has gone

*
It is true as long as you believe it
or until it dissolves before your eyes

I would love to hear about how it is for you!
What house is your Neptune in? Can you identify with any of the observations in this post? What effects do you notice?

Image and words - Susannah Bec

Moon in Aspect To Neptune

"All children are sensitive to their mothers, but those with Moon in aspect to Neptune are uncannily attuned to her. They don't even have to be in the same room and yet they feel what the Mother is going through. If the Mother has pain, the Moon - Neptune child experiences that pain as if it were his or her own. Sometimes they may even feel responsible for the Mothers pain - as if they had caused it. In short, Moon - Neptune aspects give a problem with boundaries. Those with these placements don't know where they end and others begin."
- Howard Sasportas - The Development of the Personality.

There are moments
where I feel that I have
tapped into something bigger
something more than just my personal feelings

As though at the bottom of my own emotions exists a door

I swim right down to the bottom of my psyche
down into the universal ocean of emotion
that is surging beneath.

Everything ever felt
exists here

and it pours through me
I am its conduit
aware and
empty
I feel
it all

*

Painting: Moon-Neptune (and words) by Susannah Bec
For more poetry visit - Out of My Ocean

The Feeling of Spring and its Effect on my Taurus Moon

“There are beautiful and wild forces within us.” - St Francis of Assisi

Driving through the country roads I see fields and fields of newly ploughed earth - rich dark and fertile - I feel the spring time energy - the thrusting potential of a another new cycle of creation about to begin . . .

EARTH
Red brown earth, newly ploughed,
fertile and ready for growth.
Touches my Taurus moon.
Calls for my naked body.
Rolls me in its rich soil.
I feel the season.
Springtime energy
infuses me
patient,
as the sunwarmed life
springs forth.
Singing to me,
of days to come.
Dreaming
of the harvest.

*
"In today already walks tomorrow." - Friedrich von Schiller

Image and words - Susannah Bec.

Gemini Ascendant - Who Am I ?

"Properly speaking, a man has as many social selves as there are individuals who recognise him and carry an image of him in their mind" - William James

I have just realised something.

I have been trying to find a photo to use on my blogs, as I think it is nice when visiting a blog to see a photo of who is talking, it helps you to connect to them. (Do you share that feeling?)

Well, I sorted out half a dozen photos of me taken recently, some snapped of myself in the mirror (or taken at arms length for just this purpose) and a couple my partner took on a day out.

Then my dilemma began! which one looked most like me!

"Who you are moment to moment is just a story." - Chuck Palahniuk

I could see by comparing a few of them, that if you didn't already know me you wouldn't recognise that they were photos of the same person! I called my patient man in to help - "which looks MOST like me" I wailed! - "They all do" he replied.

Aaagh, back to square one!

Then I started to puzzle, why is this? Is it my Gemini Ascendant at work? Is it the Sun sitting on my Pisces south node today triggering my Neptuneness! (very easy to do!) lol

So my dilemma continued!

When all the photos were on the screen together, I felt a sense of calm but as soon as I isolated one photo and put it on to one of my blogs, I really felt that if that was the only way people saw me, it would be giving a false impression! It is a really strange feeling!

I have been having real trouble with this today! Maybe I will try again another day!

"We are happy when for everything inside us there is a corresponding something outside us." - W.B. Yeats

Have you got a Gemini Ascendant or a strong Neptune, can you identify with these feelings?

Image - Neptune (For absolute certainty doubts me - my reality is subject to change.)

Astrology and Access to the Subconscious - Revisited

SELF UNDERSTANDING

"There is a great deal of unmapped country within us which would have to be taken into account in an explanation of our gusts and storms." - George Eliot

"We should not pretend to understand the world only by the intellect. The judgement of the intellect is only part of the truth." - Carl Jung

"Man's task is to become conscious of the contents that
press upward from the unconscious. "- Carl Jung

"A true knowledge of ourselves is knowledge of our power." - Mark Rutherford

*

Astrology has given me a way to access my subconscious.

A doorway into the realm where archetypes and dream images dwell,

the place where the lens through which I view my world

is either warped, or polished.

Pure intellect alone could not have given me entry into that world,

for shaman like, I have journeyed into that realm,

only to have lost my visions on the threshold of consciousness.

Astrology as a symbolic language enables me

to carry my discoveries safely back,

so that my mind can then set about interpreting the images

that are my messages to myself.

*

"No man remains quite what he was when he recognizes himself."

- Thomas Mann

Mercury on the IC. Moon and Mars in an intercepted 12th house. Moon opposite Neptune square Mercury. Moon trine Venus/Pluto conjunction in Virgo.
Image by Susannah Bec

2009 - Synastry Revisited - Plugs and Sockets

Synastry - Relationship Astrology

I am revisiting this post from April of last year ( new thoughts added at the end)
I would enjoy hearing your experiences and observations - Susannah :-)

Every time we interact with anyone there is a 'relationship' going on. With some people this can feel easy and natural, we feel a flow, an affinity. Communication is easy. We feel understood, validated, appreciated.

With others we have to work at the interactions, it can feel uneasy or awkward, we have trouble putting our point across or understanding where the other person is coming from, there are misunderstandings. We feel the other person is just not getting us.

Then there are those interactions that are so difficult that it can feel as though you are coming from different planets! You seem to have no common reference points at all.

I have labelled this "Plugs and Sockets."

I coined this phrase while mulling over a relationship with someone, where no matter what I tried, I just couldn't establish a connection to effectively communicate.

It was like walking around this person with my plug (my communication) and just not being able to find the appropriate socket to plug into so that we could connect.

Believe me, I searched every square inch of the relationship and yep, just as I had feared, there was actually NO socket that fitted my plug.

So, I examined our synastry and guess what, my Mercury (communication and ruling planet) made No aspects at all to anything in this persons chart. There was literally no way this person could accept and truly understand my communication, they had no socket for me to plug into.

That got me thinking about aspects between people, (and plugs and sockets). Obviously, no two people will have sockets for every one of the other persons plugs, and vice versa. We don't need just 'one' person for all our plugs, that is why we have a variety of people to interact with, but in close relationships it helps to have the appropriate plugs and sockets (aspects) to make us feel understood, and to be able to flow.

If two people are spending lots of time together and one persons sun or moon does not have a socket (any aspects to anything in the other persons chart), then they can find themselves just relating from the parts of their personality/chart that ARE 'received'.

This can lead eventually to shutting down and not fully expressing the energy of their sun or moon. If this is ongoing in a close relationship, without other avenues of expression for the planet, then the energy involved could get backed up and blocked, if this is the case, appropriate alternative expression must be found.

Some people have lots of sockets we plug into, and we provide plenty of plugs for their sockets - this makes self expression and being understood and received, easy and nourishing and is the making of a good fulfilling relationship.

Further Thoughts and Observations

I have also been thinking about the times where the other person clearly has a socket for your plug but that the flow is not an easy one -

For instance, recently I was observing an interaction between two people who have each have mercury conjunct the others neptune. There is an strong and direct connection but they were obviously not receiving each others signals clearly, in fact they would have probably been better drawing pictures for each other to explain their points of view. I watched, as the very clear and concise communication left each person (mercury) but saw that as it reached the other it was not received clearly, it had become amorphous and distorted as though it had passed through some sort of filter on route. Both thought that they knew what the other was saying but they were both projecting their own interpretations, rather than hearing and processing the actual words spoken. . .

I have also seen this happen when a flowing easily expressed planet in one person, plugs into someone who has a saturn or uranus for instance as the socket - the flowing signal that is emitted by one becomes faltering and hesitant when they are plugged in to the other persons socket - it is as though a circuit breaker has been fitted.

Glimpses of Neptune

"I see myself as a sieve. Everyone's feelings flow through me." - Liv Ullman.

"I'm familiar with formlessness, with things that never end.
Boundaries, that don't exist. Realities that bend."

I lose myself - I slip under doors - through cracks - I have no container.

*

She sang her own song

no one elses would do.

She saw through walls

and conversations

and the look in peoples eyes.

Everything was stark

Uncovered

Understood

*

Me - Neptune opposite 12th house Moon.
Words & Image - Susannah Bec.

Musings on Chiron

I have been thinking about Chiron lately, as transiting Jupiter has just moved into conjunction with my natal Chiron at 0 degrees Pisces.

Observation: As it was approaching, I felt a pressing of my 'soft spot' while empathising with a dear friend who had suffered a loss, within moments my almost forgotton wound opened up before me, fresh and raw. . .

I am paper thin

the fragile membrane

protecting my wound

a sham

a trick of the eye

*

a raw spot

a gossamer wing

an eggshell

the truth

disguised

*

facade in place

the parade

continues

*

Shedding Your Skin

"Some days demand retreat, they scream go back inside, close the door and turn out the light. Cover your head with a blanket, curl up in a ball, dark and silent. Nothing but the sound of your breath, in and out, in and out. Block out marauding thought. Wait patiently until your skin grows back."

*

Shedding your Skin taken from - My Name is Zing
Image & Poem - Chiron - by SB - 2010.
For more poetry check out - Out of My Ocean

Notes: I recently read Joyce Masons article at Zane Steins Chiron Site - link and explored her idea of aspects to chiron and the path of least resistance. I could really identify with that when applied to my own chart and it set me off on another avenue of exploration. Thanks Joyce.

Synastry, Saturn and Conjunctions

Thinking About Synastry

Something got me thinking about how when other peoples planets conjunct ours in synastry it can bring to the fore the quality of the planet involved.

If the planets energy is not one that you normally experience strongly, it can sometimes be very noticeable.



As an example:
In my chart my eighth house Saturn in Capricorn chugs along in the background giving me a sense of stability, practicality and 'weight'. It is part of a grand Earth trine with my Taurus Moon, my Venus /Pluto conjunction in Virgo and also my Virgo North Node. It makes a 150 degree aspect to my Ascendant and apart from quintile/bi quintile aspects, that is it.

I have always had a positive relationship with those in 'authority' and I seem to be received well by them despite my Sun conjunct Uranus :-) and I have always put this down to my Saturn.

Now compared to the rest of my chart Saturn doesn't feel like a major player, I rarely notice his presence and even with transits, I tend to work with his energy and get down and learn something.

That is why it becomes very noticeable to me sometimes, when I am interacting with a certain person, that all of a sudden something comes over my usually cheerful and positive personality (Sun in Leo trine Jupiter in Sagittarius) and I feel a solemnity come across me and I start putting the other side to things, pointing out the rules and regulations, the correct way things should be done.

In her words - I 'piss on her bonfire' ! :-)

I can actually feel a change come over me and have to really fight the urge, as it is very uncomfortable for us both. With my Sun conjunct Uranus, pointing out rules etc. really isn't my usual style!

She is a strong personality and her Sun falls exactly on my Saturn.

For many years no one with whom I shared my life had any planets in aspect to my Saturn - I lived in a pretty Saturn free zone! So really noticed when it was triggered from 'outside of me' .

I wonder, has anyone else noticed that other peoples planets strongly aspecting your chart can bring forward a noticeable and maybe unexpected planetary response from you?

I would love to hear your thoughts!

Gemini Man

My Gemini Man just opened his wardrobe and sighed in exasperation.

"Why have I got so many hats?"

He turned to find me with a big smile on my face.

"Oh, something astrological again I suppose!"

"Yes," I said, "something astrological." :-)

Can We Look At Uranus, Neptune and Pluto Objectively?

So, can we possibly view the outer planets clearly?

I have been thinking about the outer planets and have realised that I don't/can't view them objectively. Of course I have read all the text book definitions and recognise the essence of the outer planets but still believe that because of my chart placements I am not seeing the actual unadulterated energy.

URANUS - I have my Sun conjunct Uranus (20/21 degrees Leo trine Jupiter in Sag.)

To me Uranus energy usually feels liberating, exciting, creative.

I enjoy being an individual, I take "you're weird" as a compliment! lol.

I don't mind, going against the herd, standing up for what I believe. . . being different

Uranus transits for me are usually positive, though the early ones really didn't feel that way, more like a bomb had gone off destroying my life and everything I had clung to for security, family, home and lifestyle (I have Uranus in the 4th house.)

After the first major transit (which shattered my seedpod and changed the course of my life) I learnt some strategies and when I feel Uranus looming I 'let go and go with the flow'.

Uranus is great at sweeping me out of ruts and too comfortable comfort zones and whisking me off to new growth and lots of times a whole new life! Like Dorothy in a wizard of OZ - all of a sudden I am in a new place and everything has changed. When I look back these have been the periods of my greatest evolution,

I must say at this point that my Taurus Moon is NOT always so keen. :-)


Running softly, soundlessly, across the midnight rooftops, a dozen factory chimneys etched in black.

Through the silhouettes of night, my soul goes running, silence masking its footfalls. Far away a ship calls home, its cry echoing in the murky blackness, a pigeon roosts on a factory windowsill, its glass reflecting the moon.

As my soul goes running, no shadows does it cast, nor reflections are seen. For who will take the time in the dead of night, to look at midnight rooftops, and notice, as my soul goes running.


So for me Uranus is tied up with my Sun, my identity, it can not be seen separately, it is part of me. So I am unable to view it dispassionately.

I have observed people with Uranus in difficult aspects having trouble with feeling different, feeling like an outsider, wanting to fit in. I have seen it disrupt peoples lives and turn it upside down.

They would not view it as I do. I believe that like life itself, how you view things is filtered through who you are. (In Astrological terms - through your birthchart.) So, no absolute truths, just perceptions.


NEPTUNE - I have a 6th house Neptune opposite my 12th house Moon in Taurus both square my Leo Mercury/IC conjunction.

So for me Neptune is an emotional planet, a sensitivity, I feel people (sometimes too much.)

I have to be aware that I am porous on an emotional level, others emotions penetrate the thin membrane surrounding me.

My own emotions can be contained, worked with, healed and understood if I keep them safe within my 12th house cave and allow them to be nurtured by my grounded Taurus Moon.

But if, as in earlier years I externalise my emotions, try to share them, they become vast, amorphous, without end.

I lose myself, I slip under doors, through cracks. I have no container. If written down they can be captured, the paper gives them boundaries, I can see them.

For me Neptune is sensitivity, inspiration, intuition, compassion.

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Navigate the darkness.

Edge your way forward, one sure foot in front of the other.

Eyes closed, you trust your inner light.

Immersed in feelings you have no need of sight.

Your inner navigation knows the route.

Intuition the compass of the soul.

Feel the direction, the magnetic pull on your primal instincts.

Trust the path, trust your gut, trust your self.

Keep walking.

*

Some Neptune transits have been more difficult for me than the ones from Uranus. I have in recent years lived through Neptune opposing my Sun/Uranus conjunction, and as it makes no aspect to them natally, this was an energy my Sun was unused to! I had a very physical reaction to the transit. Whereas Neptune aspects to a planet in my chart that 'knows' that energy is easier, it is recognised and can be worked with.

As Neptune is placed in my 6th house and also has an 150 degree aspect from Mars it affects my physical health - In fact the whole sixth house Neptune issue deserves a blog post of its own to explain/explore as I have so much to say.

I hear Neptune and attach emotion to it. Someone with Mars conjunct Neptune would see it differently.


PLUTO - Pluto is conjunct my Venus (5/6 degrees Virgo) and also part of a grand Earth trine with my 12th house Moon and 8th house Saturn.

So Pluto, I associate with relating, with relationships.

In my younger days I was taken down into the depths and reborn again through my relationships.

Destroyed and resurrected. I have no fear of the deep dark places of the human psyche, of the depths of emotion. I know that from the darkness comes rebirth, comes healing.

You just have to be willing to face the darkness. Sorry, I will change that. You have to endure the darkness, you have to be courageous and hold on and wait for the process to run its course and churn you out remade, renewed, reborn. Hopefully with a few nuggets of gold in your pockets that you saw glittering in the corners of that dark underground cavern and carried back safely into the light.

I like to relate on a deep level. I like to look beneath the surface.

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Golden, I am golden,

a fiery sun burning with a never ending flame.

Red hot centre combusting,

radiating outward,

wave after wave fueled by a magnificient wind,

whirling, blowing life into the feeding flames.

I am alight, radiant, glorious.

Raging heat, the nucleus of creation,

throw me down into your molten heart,

transform me in your crucible.

Forged in the white heat to arise

a phoenix from your flame.

Base to precious,

lead to gold,

transmutation,

alchemy.

*

Pluto needs depth whatever it is attached to in our chart.

That is why text book definitions help us to get an idea of the 'nature' of a planet but observation of ourselves, others and life is needed to fully understand and integrate all the nuances of any one planetary energy.


QUESTIONS - How do the aspects from the outer planets to personal planets in your chart colour how you view them?

Do you notice the outer planet energies in your day to day life?

All poems taking from my poetry blog - Out Of My Ocean

All Images chosen from my artwork to express the qualities of the particular planets

Sun conjunct Uranus

In my chart I have Sun conjunct Uranus in Leo in the 4th House trining Jupiter in Sagitarius in the 7th house. In general I find it to be a real positive, I am pretty comfortable in my "individuality". ;-)

But I was just reading through some of the older posts on this blog when I came across something I had written about one aspect of my Sun conjunct Uranus.

I can be what you could call 'highly strung' not in a nervous, fragile way, more like, as the line in the poem below says "wired under strain" like a rubber band stretched to full capacity. At times I feel my nervous system is so acutely sensitive that I don't have much 'stretch' if something twangs my rubber band! :-)

URANUS
I'm lit from within by a terrible light.
I'm buoyant, and radiant, and raw.
Intensely connected.
Wired under strain.
Tension, too tight to ignore.

Obviously this is accentuated by certain transits (and I am sure the above was written under one of them). I also have Mars in Gemini conjuncting my ascendant (from the 12th house) and I have to be aware of my excess of 'Mercury "mental" and Uranian "electrical" energy for fear of short circuiting or blowing a fuse! I can't take too much stress.

How do you experience Sun conjunct Uranus, does anyone else feel 'wired under strain'?

Image - PASSION - Sun conjunct Uranus in Leo

Mercury in Leo

There have been times when I am talking,
that a certain person has been known to say
(jokingly of course ;-))

"Don't be SO dramatic!"

To which I reply . . .

"I can't help it,

I have Mercury in Leo." :-)