Individuality - Sun conjunct Uranus

"Revolutions begin with the self, in the self" - Toni Cade


S u n C o n j u n c t U r a n u s

I think that with Uranus conjunct the Sun it automatically makes you hard wired with a kind of high voltage electrical energy. With a charged nervous system, stress easily effects these people and they are prone to being highly strung especially when the Sun is in Fire or Air.

They are strongly individualistic and have a highly developed sense of self and if you push these people...they will push back. They resist moulds and are not afraid to be seen as different and to stand up for what they believe. They have original minds and can easily think 'out of the box' and have an uncanny ability to pluck thoughts and inspiration out of thin air.

They can have trouble with physical co-ordination and as children they can find it difficult to catch a ball, for instance. They also may experience phases when they have trouble going to sleep or find them selves waking suddenly.

They relish being individuals and have no particular need to 'fit in' with the crowd - feeling their 'differentness' to be an asset rather than a fault.

"To me, the whole process of being a brushstroke in
someone else’s painting is a little difficult." - Madonna

I N D I V I D U A L

She was never one for pastels, her colours were bold
too volatile to have ever been considered demure
she screamed when others merely whispered
it was not her intention to offend, it was just her way

August bought forth a fiercely individual spirit
she couldn't, wouldn't, dull her shine for anyone
her voltage was high, she contained the electricity
but you could still hear it, popping and crackling

Under the shiny surface a golden heart was beating
as it pumped the ruby red lifeblood through her veins
Dancing flames licked around her head, a fiery halo
while all around her ankles the angry ocean roared

- Susannah Bec 2010

These are three verses of a recent poem... for the rest of the poem please visit my poetry blog - Out of My Ocean

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Image and words Susannah Bec.

Glimpses of Neptune

"I see myself as a sieve. Everyone's feelings flow through me." - Liv Ullman.

"I'm familiar with formlessness, with things that never end.
Boundaries, that don't exist. Realities that bend."

I lose myself - I slip under doors - through cracks - I have no container.

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She sang her own song

no one elses would do.

She saw through walls

and conversations

and the look in peoples eyes.

Everything was stark

Uncovered

Understood

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Me - Neptune opposite 12th house Moon.
Words & Image - Susannah Bec.

Can We Look At Uranus, Neptune and Pluto Objectively?

So, can we possibly view the outer planets clearly?

I have been thinking about the outer planets and have realised that I don't/can't view them objectively. Of course I have read all the text book definitions and recognise the essence of the outer planets but still believe that because of my chart placements I am not seeing the actual unadulterated energy.

URANUS - I have my Sun conjunct Uranus (20/21 degrees Leo trine Jupiter in Sag.)

To me Uranus energy usually feels liberating, exciting, creative.

I enjoy being an individual, I take "you're weird" as a compliment! lol.

I don't mind, going against the herd, standing up for what I believe. . . being different

Uranus transits for me are usually positive, though the early ones really didn't feel that way, more like a bomb had gone off destroying my life and everything I had clung to for security, family, home and lifestyle (I have Uranus in the 4th house.)

After the first major transit (which shattered my seedpod and changed the course of my life) I learnt some strategies and when I feel Uranus looming I 'let go and go with the flow'.

Uranus is great at sweeping me out of ruts and too comfortable comfort zones and whisking me off to new growth and lots of times a whole new life! Like Dorothy in a wizard of OZ - all of a sudden I am in a new place and everything has changed. When I look back these have been the periods of my greatest evolution,

I must say at this point that my Taurus Moon is NOT always so keen. :-)


Running softly, soundlessly, across the midnight rooftops, a dozen factory chimneys etched in black.

Through the silhouettes of night, my soul goes running, silence masking its footfalls. Far away a ship calls home, its cry echoing in the murky blackness, a pigeon roosts on a factory windowsill, its glass reflecting the moon.

As my soul goes running, no shadows does it cast, nor reflections are seen. For who will take the time in the dead of night, to look at midnight rooftops, and notice, as my soul goes running.


So for me Uranus is tied up with my Sun, my identity, it can not be seen separately, it is part of me. So I am unable to view it dispassionately.

I have observed people with Uranus in difficult aspects having trouble with feeling different, feeling like an outsider, wanting to fit in. I have seen it disrupt peoples lives and turn it upside down.

They would not view it as I do. I believe that like life itself, how you view things is filtered through who you are. (In Astrological terms - through your birthchart.) So, no absolute truths, just perceptions.


NEPTUNE - I have a 6th house Neptune opposite my 12th house Moon in Taurus both square my Leo Mercury/IC conjunction.

So for me Neptune is an emotional planet, a sensitivity, I feel people (sometimes too much.)

I have to be aware that I am porous on an emotional level, others emotions penetrate the thin membrane surrounding me.

My own emotions can be contained, worked with, healed and understood if I keep them safe within my 12th house cave and allow them to be nurtured by my grounded Taurus Moon.

But if, as in earlier years I externalise my emotions, try to share them, they become vast, amorphous, without end.

I lose myself, I slip under doors, through cracks. I have no container. If written down they can be captured, the paper gives them boundaries, I can see them.

For me Neptune is sensitivity, inspiration, intuition, compassion.

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Navigate the darkness.

Edge your way forward, one sure foot in front of the other.

Eyes closed, you trust your inner light.

Immersed in feelings you have no need of sight.

Your inner navigation knows the route.

Intuition the compass of the soul.

Feel the direction, the magnetic pull on your primal instincts.

Trust the path, trust your gut, trust your self.

Keep walking.

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Some Neptune transits have been more difficult for me than the ones from Uranus. I have in recent years lived through Neptune opposing my Sun/Uranus conjunction, and as it makes no aspect to them natally, this was an energy my Sun was unused to! I had a very physical reaction to the transit. Whereas Neptune aspects to a planet in my chart that 'knows' that energy is easier, it is recognised and can be worked with.

As Neptune is placed in my 6th house and also has an 150 degree aspect from Mars it affects my physical health - In fact the whole sixth house Neptune issue deserves a blog post of its own to explain/explore as I have so much to say.

I hear Neptune and attach emotion to it. Someone with Mars conjunct Neptune would see it differently.


PLUTO - Pluto is conjunct my Venus (5/6 degrees Virgo) and also part of a grand Earth trine with my 12th house Moon and 8th house Saturn.

So Pluto, I associate with relating, with relationships.

In my younger days I was taken down into the depths and reborn again through my relationships.

Destroyed and resurrected. I have no fear of the deep dark places of the human psyche, of the depths of emotion. I know that from the darkness comes rebirth, comes healing.

You just have to be willing to face the darkness. Sorry, I will change that. You have to endure the darkness, you have to be courageous and hold on and wait for the process to run its course and churn you out remade, renewed, reborn. Hopefully with a few nuggets of gold in your pockets that you saw glittering in the corners of that dark underground cavern and carried back safely into the light.

I like to relate on a deep level. I like to look beneath the surface.

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Golden, I am golden,

a fiery sun burning with a never ending flame.

Red hot centre combusting,

radiating outward,

wave after wave fueled by a magnificient wind,

whirling, blowing life into the feeding flames.

I am alight, radiant, glorious.

Raging heat, the nucleus of creation,

throw me down into your molten heart,

transform me in your crucible.

Forged in the white heat to arise

a phoenix from your flame.

Base to precious,

lead to gold,

transmutation,

alchemy.

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Pluto needs depth whatever it is attached to in our chart.

That is why text book definitions help us to get an idea of the 'nature' of a planet but observation of ourselves, others and life is needed to fully understand and integrate all the nuances of any one planetary energy.


QUESTIONS - How do the aspects from the outer planets to personal planets in your chart colour how you view them?

Do you notice the outer planet energies in your day to day life?

All poems taking from my poetry blog - Out Of My Ocean

All Images chosen from my artwork to express the qualities of the particular planets

Sun conjunct Uranus

In my chart I have Sun conjunct Uranus in Leo in the 4th House trining Jupiter in Sagitarius in the 7th house. In general I find it to be a real positive, I am pretty comfortable in my "individuality". ;-)

But I was just reading through some of the older posts on this blog when I came across something I had written about one aspect of my Sun conjunct Uranus.

I can be what you could call 'highly strung' not in a nervous, fragile way, more like, as the line in the poem below says "wired under strain" like a rubber band stretched to full capacity. At times I feel my nervous system is so acutely sensitive that I don't have much 'stretch' if something twangs my rubber band! :-)

URANUS
I'm lit from within by a terrible light.
I'm buoyant, and radiant, and raw.
Intensely connected.
Wired under strain.
Tension, too tight to ignore.

Obviously this is accentuated by certain transits (and I am sure the above was written under one of them). I also have Mars in Gemini conjuncting my ascendant (from the 12th house) and I have to be aware of my excess of 'Mercury "mental" and Uranian "electrical" energy for fear of short circuiting or blowing a fuse! I can't take too much stress.

How do you experience Sun conjunct Uranus, does anyone else feel 'wired under strain'?

Image - PASSION - Sun conjunct Uranus in Leo

That Night in the Bar

I'd been a long while away and as I stepped from the car

and pushed open the door that lead to the bar

the music, the smells, the dense smokey air

assailed all my senses, as I looked for a chair

I watched as my friend pushed through the crowd

and wondered why they needed the music so loud

I was finding it difficult even to think

as I sat in the corner and sipped on my drink

finally I got used to the sights and the sound

and started to take a good look around

there in the corners sat people like me

and at tables around, there were others to see

leaning on walls, they were not part of the din

glasses in hand, they were sinking within

I've seen musicians at work, channeling tunes

I've watched readers of tarot, casters of runes

I've seen people praying, down on bended knees

I've seen painters awestruck, before vast churning seas

and in that very moment, I began to understand

that life and that longing, walk hand in hand

what I saw in those faces, that night in the bar

was at the bottom of a glass, they were glimpsing that star

their eyes became shiny as they entered the zone

The gods were there with them, they were no longer alone

It was clear to me watching, that right there in plain sight

Neptune was there, in the bar room that night


Image - Saturday Night (Watercolour and Marker Pen)

WATER : Moon opp Neptune

The ink black ocean that knows my name
yearns to enfold me in her depths
Never more to search the sky
with eager eyes, that drink colour like wine
Intoxicated by blue
The howling wind, abetted by
insistent waves that scream and shout
tug me to her lonely shore
where watching, one eyed
her accomplice moon
does nothing to reassure me.
Once again down into the surging seas
internal tides, beginning to swell
I know that as the rhythm enters me
searching for my surrender.
I will begin to dance.

(Moon opposite Neptune)

Copyright © SB 2008

The Outer Planets and Me - Pluto

I take Pluto's hand. I observe and am transformed by the depths. I have been taken apart, and put back together again so many times, that it makes the descent a little easier. For I know and anticipate, even whilst I am alone in the darkness, the growth and understanding that will be the ultimate reward.

It gives me an understanding into the dynamics of people and of relationships. It shows me behind the scenes, underneath the surface. It reveals what has been kept hidden, Opens closed doors, shines lights into closets, tells secrets.

Pluto...I have been purified by fire and arisen from the ashes.

Venus conjunct pluto in virgo trine taurus moon (both loose trine saturn in capricorn-earth grand trine) square mars in gemini and sextile neptune.

The Outer Planets and Me - Neptune

Neptune comes in pictures, images, sounds, colours and feelings. It links me with the female, the yin, the intuitive.

It gives me a foot in both worlds. It understands and is at home in the world of dreams, archetypes and symbols, for they are its realm. It knows the "reality" behind the reality.

It enables me to see the "bigger picture." The drama that is being played out on earths big screen TV. Neptune hands me the remote control, enables me to switch channels.

I see pictures in everything. I hold the stem of a newly sprouted sunflower seed, and tears spring to my eyes, as I feel and identify with the life force within...striving to become.

Neptune in 6th house opposite Taurus Moon in 12th square Mercury/IC and MC. Sextile my Venus/Pluto conjunction in Virgo.

The Outer Planets and Me - Uranus

Uranus gives me flashes of pure incisive thought. It slices through the veil. It gives access to the universal mind. I am energised, quickened, excited, sure. I channel myself.

Sun conjunct Uranus in Leo trine Jupiter in Sagittarius

Too much Neptune

TOO MUCH NEPTUNE
She sat, huddled.
Her thin life coming apart at the seams.
She pulled it to her
for warmth and cold comfort.
A fragile shell,
that could neither hold her in,
or anything else out.
No division,
no exterior, no interior
no sanctuary
from the storms of emotion
from the weather of her moods.
She sang her own song,
no one elses would do.
She saw through walls,
and conversations
and the look in peoples eyes.
Everything was stark,

Uncovered
Understood.

Copyright © SB 2008

Sun conjunct Uranus

URANUS
I'm lit from within by a terrible light.
I'm buoyant, and radiant, and raw.
Intensely connected.
Wired under strain.
Tension, too tight to ignore.

(Sun conjunct Uranus)

Copyright © SB 2008

Moon opposite Neptune

Neptune has been my Mother
bought forth from her very womb,
I feel her every nuance,
whilst wandering in her rooms.

She has always been around me,
but I've never seen her face.
Her gentle arms, encircle me,
as I'm staring into space.

Oceanic energy,
that coddles, and reveals.
The masks are constantly changing,
depending how she feels.

I'm familiar with formlessness,
with things that never end.
Boundaries, that don't exist.
…Realities that bend.

She cossets my emotion,
whilst exposing every thought.
Dwelling in her special place.
High priestess…holding court.

(12th house Moon opp Neptune
both square Mercury on I.C.)

Copyright © SB 2008